Saints and Sailors
This is where I say I've had enough
And no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
And I don't believe that I'm getting any better.
Any better.
Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
And I'm thinking awful things
I'm pretty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment
is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to break the silence.
Wandering this house
like I've never wanted out
And this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
Cause they would never do,
I would never do.
Never
Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
And I'm thinking awful things
I'm pretty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to break the silence.
So don't be a liar
Don't say that
everything's working
when everything's broken.
And you smile like a saint
but you curse like a sailor
And your eyes say the jokes on me.
~dashboard confessional

From Netscape news today:

"Pope Says Don't Do THIS on Sundays
No more watching movies or football games on Sundays. Pope John Paul II has decreed that Roman Catholics should reserve Sunday as a day for God only and not for secular diversions, such as entertainment and sports, reports Reuters. "When Sunday loses its fundamental meaning and becomes subordinate to a secular concept of 'weekend' dominated by such things as entertainment and sport, people stay locked within a horizon so narrow that they can no longer see the heavens," the pontiff said in a speech to 35 Australian bishops, who recently made a pilgrimage to the Vatican. The pope blasted what he called "the pernicious ideology of secularism."
Condemning the "culture of the here and now," the Holy Father encouraged the leaders of the church to "lead men and women from the shadows of moral confusion and ambiguous thinking." Noting the secular culture is undermining family life, the pope encouraged Catholics to remain faithful to the Sunday Mass.
Richard Lapchick, director of the Institute for Diversity and Ethics in Sport at the University of Central Florida in Orlando, admitted to The Boston Herald that he was "kind of flabbergasted by the pope's suggestion, because it seems like it's coming out of left field. We've been playing sports on Sunday his entire papacy." Of course, most professional teams, including those in Europe, play their games on Sundays. Who can imagine a Sunday afternoon between August and January without a National Football League game?
To which the pope says this: "Sunday is the supreme day of faith, an indispensable day, the day of Christian hope. Any weakening in the Sunday observance of Holy Mass weakens Christian discipleship." Lapchick had harsh words in reply. If the Catholic church did place a ban on Sunday sports, he thinks the church would lose congregants. "Sports is a religion in this country and a lot of the world," he said."

interesting.

alright im taking a break...
so i had this awesome idea for making a skirt so i spent the afternoon at the fabric store picking out all these pretty fabrics and i was planning on finishing it tonight after work and tomorrow morning, if needed.
(heh, if needed.)
let me tell you, sewing by hand is s l o w. i dont have a machine yet but i didnt think it would be that time consuming to to sew by hand, especially this pattern which is like thee easiest pattern ever. right now its 230, ive been working about 2 hours ( and listened to jack johnson 4 times) and all i accomplished is cutting out 4 measley pieces and sewed one of the ties to the skirt. !! so most likely this will not be done by the time i go to work tomorrow, that is unless i dont want to sleep tonight.
and i choose sleep.


this has been a random update brought to you by hannah
goodnight :)

Mood: bummed
Music: Jason Mraz-unfold
Scripture: "For this cause also thank we God without ceasing, because, when ye received the word of God which ye heard of us, ye received [it] not [as] the word of men, but as it is in truth, the word of God, which effectually worketh also in you that believe." 1 Thess. 2:13

So yesterday was this gorgy day with the most perfect weather that anyone could ask for and i was itching all day to drop my school books and hit the basketball courts, but instead, i attempted to be responsible and just let a longing look in the park's direction every few minutes suffice while i tried to make sense of kidney functions, knowing that i had all morning today to play.
today i woke up and it was raining. :(
maybe it will stop soon; even so, the courts will be all wet. we'll see. i need to go to walmart and buy a new ball today too, since the old one wont hold air in it for more than 10 minutes. and besides, rainy days are the best for curling up with coffee and a book. i wanted to try and make a skirt today but i doubt i could finish it by the time i go into work at 3, especially by hand. so i think ill be patient and wait until i have a machine. hopefully ill be getting that in a few weeks, maybe sooner. tomorrow i get paid and i think i will pay off the last of my debt for the plane ticket to PG, then ill be able to spend my money on fun things \:D/
i have so many ideas for clothes that i just want to spend all day making, but unfortunatly this has now become the busy time at school, so it will be probably a month before i can spend quality time with my new Singer.
Im having the hardest time being diligent in my schoolwork. i just want to skip class all the time and ignore the hours of expected studying i should be doing. i always think i can get by on just using what i learned in class to get me through the tests, and not spend any outside time on the material. HA! it never works that way. but even when i dont do as well as i hoped, i just dont care anymore. i know the minimum grades i need to get into nursing school and thats the highest grade im hoping for, which is much less than my best and what im capable of. isnt that sad! im so lazy...i really need to be more studious and diligent, since God requires that I be glorifying to Him in everything that i do. no more half ass work! right? right.
well if you think of praying for that, maybe you could also pray for my dad. i found out that he doesnt want to divorce my mom after all, like he had been planning for the last three years, but instead wants to pursue her! i was so happy when i found out that i wanted to cry. my dad isnt reformed at all but he is a christian, and the best christian role model i had when i was growing up. im so thankful that i can still share that with him, as oppose to my mom and my sister, who both appear to hate God. we may even all move back into together which is even more exciting. i dont want to get my hopes up of becoming the Prices or the Birgers or any other functional family right away. but maybe someday.

so now my mood is hopeful, and my belly is growling. i think i want to go to Bombers for lunch, so that is all for now. :)

2 months 7 days 19 hours 23 minutes and 44 seconds until Prince George!
thats 69 days! so soon! :-O \:D/

It's a quiz! (stolen from Irene:)
1.WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Hannah Beth Strole

2.WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? the relentless sound of my thoughts

3.WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? how about i just give you all of them so you call me (hint hint) because honestly, 4 will do you no good.....518-423-7285

4.WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? no-bake cookies that my roommate (who is pretty much martha stewart in the kitchen) made

5.IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? black

6.HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? beautiful.....approximately 80 degrees with the sun shining down and the empty basketball courts are calling my name....

7.LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? The Ed

8.DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Irene is sweet like a cookie and though her taste in music is questionable (:P) her taste in hockey is impeccable

9.HOW ARE YOU TODAY? today im ok, i guess. lame answer but im still recovering from all the excitment of this last week with the wedding and all the preparations and everything ( even though i didnt do anything)

10.FAVORITE DRINK? water

11.FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? vodka with cranberry juice and lime

12.FAVORITE SPORTS? basketball to play; rugby or hockey to watch

13.HAIR COLOR? i think after all these years its peeking out a brownish color from beneath layers and layers of hair dye

14.EYE COLOR? theyre green. sometimes.

15.DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS: no

16.SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES: Rachel (18) and Tal (6)

17.FAVORITE MONTH? January is nice since i usually have most of it off for vacation....but February is my birthday and also its still cold but there'll be a few days in there where spring pokes its head out, just to look around, but not too much so that we miss the rest of winter ( ok, so that I dont miss the rest of winter, i know no one else misses winter :P)

18.FAVORITE FOOD? ice cream.....avacados....disco fries from bombers are good but horrible for you....everything else from bombers is on my top ten list at least.......indian food and curry are awesome too

19.LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? whats a movie? oh movie! i think it was the Great Santini at the Price's house and i remember seeing Little Women recently but i can not recall for the life of me the last time i watched a movie before that (its a good thing though)

20.FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? I agree with Irene---> "Every day. “For this is
the day that the Lord hath made, let us rejoice and
be glad in it!”"

21.SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS BETTER? I dont like scary movies, and movies with happy endings are typically LAME and so hackneyed that i dont find them enjoyable. but in real life, happy endings are always optimal. ( i am so full of big words today: what would i do without dictionary.com? :> )

22.SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter. hands down.

23.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? chocolate.

24.LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? in a house with three other ladies. sadly, neighbors think we're gay.

25.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? im anti mouse pads

26.FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Cranium....dont listen to Nate, it is the funnest game ever

27.WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? last night was awesome.....i had a delightful Lord's day holding my adopted son, Emiliano Ibarra, and chatting with the beautiful ladies in the church, and eating great food. afterwards i was invited to the Prices with some other people and we sang psalms. we had to say goodbye to John and Sheila West and Denny, Patti and Max :( but it was great having them here. then Amanda showed me some pictures and we talked, it was so great ( i adore her :X) then we had family worship, which is always a blessing to be a part of since i have no family, and then it was really late so i had to go home, but if i could i think i would move into their house. :)

28.FAVORITE SMELLS? hazelnut coffee, mens cologne (on men), lillies, fresh laundry, ed's feet :P

29.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE
UP IN THE MORNING? can i get away with hitting the snooze button one more time?

30. FAVORITE NUMBER? 4

31. FAVORITE ATHLETE? me :) no, i dont think i have one

32. NICEST THING SOMEONE’S EVER SAID TO YOU? a lady once told me that i made her think of grace....which is pretty far-fetched but sweet nonetheless.....people at church are so sweet to me too *sigh* my new family is such a blessing, im so thankful to be a part of it, and for how welcoming they were/are to me :D >hugs to you all<

wow, a whole afternoon with nothing to do! i havent seen the likes of this in a very long time...
heres a tenative to do list:
*play basketball
*go to starbucks and read
* work on my blanket
* lie out in the sun
*study (yeah right)
*go grocery shopping

whew! i better get to it...
>:D<

Mood: pondering
Music: silence
Scripture: Exodus 32

I read this passage this morning in worship and was somewhat confused. In the middle of the passage Moses petitions God, asking Him to spare His wrath on Israel for making a molten calf and worshipping it. He prays: "LORD, why doth thy wrath wax hot against thy people, which thou hast brought forth out of the land of Egypt with great power, and with a mighty hand? Wherefore should the Egyptians speak, and say, For mischief did he bring them out, to slay them in the mountains, and to consume them from the face of the earth? Turn from thy fierce wrath, and repent of this evil against thy people. Remember Abraham, Isaac, and Israel, thy servants, to whom thou swarest by thine own self, and saidst unto them, I will multiply your seed as the stars of heaven, and all this land that I have spoken of will I give unto your seed, and they shall inherit [it] for ever. " It appears that Moses is counselling God and that God heeds the advice of man because afterwards "the LORD repented of the evil which he thought to do unto his people." (exodus 32: 11-14) Is that consistant with Romans 11:34 (For who hath known the mind of the Lord? or who hath been his counsellor?) Would God have wiped out Israel if Moses had not questioned Him? Did God need Moses to call Him to repent? Is it possible for God to have to repent unto Himself? Is it possible for God to think evil thoughts?

Thoughts anyone?
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2 months 25 days 14 hours 18 minutes and 3 seconds until we fly to Prince George! :D