mood: out of it
i woke up not too long ago, after having worked the overnight shift. not something i do too often, but it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, especially since i snuck a nap in at 3 AM. :> ive got to do the same shift on Monday night, so i figured i wouldnt try to break my messed up schedule before then. unfortunately im now a vampire.
the problem with being awake all night is that the buses dont run, so basically im stuck here at home. its not too bad, i havent been here in so long that i almost forgot what it looks like. (*Side note: Ed and various other people have been most gracious and generous in driving me around or hosting me in their homes; their kindnesses are much appreciated*)
With a couple days off of work, ive had a chance to get to what ive wanted for awhile; i did some baking, some cleaning and sewing. i had a spontaneous chance to borrow my roomates car for a night (while i was awake and she was sleeping), so my sister Rachel and i went to super walmart out of sheer boredom. i decided while i was there to get my new sewing machine, also a spontaneous act and probably not the greatest idea since we all know what "quality" items walmart sells. i took it out of the box at home and tried to fiddle with it and, of course, something broke. well, it may or may not be fixed (fortunately Ed looked at it for me and could easily discern what was wrong) but i think i might still take it back. that is if i can spontaneously get back to super walmart before thirty days are up.
its so weird....i still have all night to be awake. its probably going to be dull, just me and the cats. Hopefully ill use my time and read somethings ive been wanting to for awhile. Shawn let me borrow two books : A Quest for Godliness and The Puritan Hope. Tammy also lent me Female Piety, which I am thoroughly enjoying and highly recommend to all women, especially single ones. I want to share a passage that has been most encouraging to me (emphasis added):
Lay the basis of all your excellencies in true religion, the religion of the heart, the religion of penitence, faith in Christ, love to God, a holy and heavenly mind. No character can be well-constructed, safe, complete, beautiful or useful, without this. Cultivate those dispositions of mind which have especial reference to your future mission as the help meet for man. Improve your mind, and grow in intelligence by a thirst for knowledge; for how can an ignorant woman be a companion for a sensible man? Cherish a thoughtful, reflective turn of mind. Look beneath the surface of things; beyond their presence aspect to their future consequences. Be somewhat meditative, and learn to retrain your words and feelings, by a rigid self-control. Pay most anxious attention to your temper, and acquire as much as possible its perfect command. More women are rendered miserable, and render others miserable, by neglect of this, than perhaps from any other cause whatever. Let meekness of disposition and gentleness of manner be a constant study. These are women's amiabilities, which fit her for her future situation far better than the bold, imposing and obtrusive airs of those who mistake the secret of women's influence.
Well, i need a coffee and some exercise, so i think ill jog down to Dunkin donuts before it rains.
have a blessed evening my friends!
"...a child away from home..."