Mood: exhausted but i cant sleeep.
Music: so remember how i said i gave up most music? welllll, i found this song that i really liked and i even learned how to play on guitar (hey rachel, remember when we "played" that "show" and we became Fried Velcro?) yeah, i think i still like the song, aka, this song:

Swiss Army Romance
Sleep with all the lights on
You're not so happy
You're not secure
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans,
but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds.
Dorms unload & youre heading out.
Here is your moment to shine.
Making up a history.
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man, will they buy all your lines.

Sleep with all the sheets off
baring your mattress
baring your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos
but you're searching just like everyone
could be anyone.
And the friends that you have are the best
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.
Making up a history,
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man will they buy all your lines.
We're not twenty-one,
but the sooner we are,
the sooner the fun will begin,
so get out your fake eyelashes,
and fake i.d's,
& real disasters ensue,
it's cool to take these chances.
It's cool to fake romances
& grow up fast.
~dashboard confessional



oh hmmm, today is march 27th.
it used to be my parents anniversary, but it hasnt been for atleast two years....
aw man, now i feel all bummed
:(

heres another apt song quote:
"your hair is everywhere,
screaming infidelities
and taking its wear"

even better:
"Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble,
and he bringeth them out of the distresses.
He maketh the storm calm,
so that the waves thereof are still.
Then they are glad because they be quiet;
so he bringeth them unto their desired haven.
Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness,
and for his wonderful works to the children of men!
Let them exalt him also in the congregation of the people,
and praise him in the assembly of the elders.
He turneth rivers into a wilderness,
and the watersprings into dry ground;
A fruitful land into barrenness,
for the wickedness of them that dwell therein.
He turneth the wilderness into a standing water,
and dry ground into watersprings.
And there he maketh the hungry to dwell,
that they may prepare a city for habitation;
And sow the fields, and plant vineyards,
which may yield fruits of increase.
He blesseth them also, so that they are multiplied greatly;
and suffereth not their cattle to decrease.
Again, they are minished and brought low
through oppression, affliction, and sorrow.
He poureth contempt upon princes,
and causeth them to wander in the wilderness,
[where there is] no way.
Yet setteth he the poor on high from affliction,
and maketh [him] families like a flock.
The righteous shall see [it], and rejoice:
and all iniquity shall stop her mouth.
Whoso [is] wise, and will observe these [things], even they shall understand the lovingkindness of the LORD."
Psalm 107:28-43